Canonball, belly flop or dive in...

On our grateful walk at the Sugarloaf bridge,
I offered gratitude for
the courage to leave the
well worn pathways of my mind
to plunge into
the unexplored beauty of my heart.
I’ve discovered my mind
had become an unhealthy servant to
following belief pathways
that I was taught
and not that I had created.
Built from fear,
these pathways
built outside of the heart
were taught to me to keep me
“safe” from the darkness of this world
not to teach me
to free me from it.
The irony of it
is leaving the heart
is what causes the darkness of the world
and in me following along
on fearful pathways
I was led into my own shadows.
In an effort to find a way out of my darkness,
I followed artificial lights
that offer ways
to numb, ignore, suppress and project the pain
instead of giving me the wisdom
that the pain was the call of my heart
summoning me back home.
So here I am
having taken the plunge
into my heart
where I’ve learned to sit in pain long enough to honor its wisdom,
go deep enough to reunite with peace
and learn when darkness tempts me out of my heart
to cannonball, bellyflop, jump or dive back in
as soon as possible
for it is in the heart
that the answer to our longing
is found.
May today find you
courageously leaping off the fearful pathways
and plunging into the undiscovered mysteries
of the heart.
-Jenny and Bella